So after spending 5 years in one place, it's finally over. Not only have I spent the majority of my days at school but I practically dedicated my life to it. I was so excited to leave school but the day before my leaver assembly, I'm left wondering what I'm supposed to do next.
Don't get me wrong, I don't exactly enjoy school, quite honestly I hate it but I can't help the feeling of my heart sinking at the fact it's all over. They say there's a fine line between love and hate and I think that's what my problem is right now. It seems I've suddenly become worried about the fact my security is about to be taken away from me, the one thing that was there whether I wanted it to be or not is gone. I mean if anything else I knew that I'd be getting up of a morning for one reason and that reason won't be there anymore.
I know that the next step is college and it's all part of natural progression but it's not the same. High school is your natural environment, it's the place you feel safe and secure, so what happens when it's no longer there? I get that it's filled with obnoxious cliques and people that you can't stand to be around but it's also filled with the your closest friends and the people you love. It's crammed with people whining at you all the time but it's also attached to the people you've begun to look up to and have relied on over the past few years. So are we just supposed to accept the fact that it's time to move on? I'm aware that this may sound depressing but in reality we are just part of a running cycle. We entered the system when they needed us and now we're exiting when there's no longer any need for us and that's something we have to learn to deal with.
I think I decided to write this post as closure for myself because at this point of the blog I've come to realise that this isn't the end, it's actually just the beginning. I don't care how cliché this sounds, this is the start of a whole new chapter in my life and that's really exciting. Although the reality of it is that I will lose friends, I'll make so many more along the way that I won't even care. I'm just happy that I have the people closest to me to share the rest of my adventure with.
So, with all of that said, I'm ready to say goodbye to the last 5 years with some amazing memories that will stay with me forever. I'm not sad anymore, I'm excited. I'm excited for the future and the people I get to meet along the way.
I would like to thank two incredible people who have helped me through the last 5 years and whom I'd never change. Thank you guys, I love you.
Bye Bugs xoxo
